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So Exhausted

School was rough today. Still, it'd be alright, if I had been able to get home at a normal time.
But no, because I had stupid Amnesty International today, which I go to purely out of guilt alone. The senior girls talk down to me, and the atmosphere is uncomfortable. Not only that, but we never do anything that I feel really has helped someone else.
Except when we fund raise. That's why I go, actually. As stereotypical as it sounds, I think cold, hard, cash is the best thing we can do for some of the countries and organizations out there. All the speeches and talking about how terrible it is, and all of the damn letter writing, don't amount to anything at all.
(Honestly, what kind of brutal dictator cares what a group of teenage girls think about the way he treats his people?)
So that was forty-five minutes, which isn't that bad.
But then I had to wait in the lobby of the hospital my mother works at for a good three hours, which means it's six by the time I'm home.
I...am....so...tired.
And hating that I can't drive, and that my mother won't let me get rides from seniors.

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High-school passes in a blink of an eye. Before you know it, you'll be a senior in college, like me. I know it sounds hokey, but I swear to God, it seems like yesterday when I would hang around the locker waiting to meet my boyfriend and get a kiss and a note from him.

I did drama club for a year, that took up a lot of time, but I loved it...

-Amanda
I actually like high school, just...not today, and not Amnesty International. Gay-Straight Alliance, though, is pretty awesome, as are /most/ of my classes.

And don't worry. None of what you said sounded too hokey.
"All the speeches and talking about how terrible it is, and all of the damn letter writing, don't amount to anything at all."

This. I mean, people can say "Oh no this is so terrible aaah!!", but it's when they actually get up and do something about it is what really matters. I always felt that way about petitions and stuff, too. Like, I always sign them to Save the Wolves or to X-and-X, but I never feel as if anyone is even going to read what I wrote, or care, etc. When I can, I always like just giving money, or donating, or "sponsoring", etc., because I know it's actually going to go straight to the people. ^_^

That sucks that the group makes you feel uncomfortable. Is there a way you can get a friend to come along and sign up with you to take some of the edge off? Or a way to just volunteer with the fundraising groups and kind of just...stay away from all the catty seniors?

At least you can always take away from the day that you're making someone else's! <3
Exactly.

I would love to have a friend come with me, but...most of my friends are kind of 'chill'. You know- the types that are ultra-cynical and think that nothing anyone does is helpful or purely good. (And if it's not perfect, sheesh, why bother doing it, even if it's mostly good? *sarcasm*)
Except my friend Rose, who I also have a mad crush on. But she has Poetry Club on Thursdays, and she loves it like crazy.

I'm going to start only going to A.I. once a month, that way I get fund-raising updates, without having to deal with the other stuff.

I wish I was making someone else's day...I'd go then. My issue is that I don't think -a lot of time- we really are.